And that was okay. Because she’d learned that sitting with that discomfort, even for five minutes, was like watering a dried-up plant inside her. The quiet wasn’t empty. It was where the real growing happened.
Her mornings started with a phone grab before her eyes fully opened. Notifications, news, memes, messages. Then coffee. Then a podcast while brushing her teeth. Then work—two screens, three chat apps, and a YouTube tab playing “lo-fi beats to focus.” By noon, she’d checked Instagram, Twitter, Reddit, and TikTok at least four times each. stimaddict
One Sunday, she hit a wall. Her brain felt like an old laptop with 47 tabs open, fans screaming. She tried to read a book—a real one, paper—and made it three pages before her hand twitched for her phone. That scared her. And that was okay
Sometimes the answer was boredom. Sometimes sadness. Sometimes just the discomfort of being alone with her own mind. It was where the real growing happened
Here’s a short, helpful story about someone who identified as a “stimaddict”—not in the clinical sense, but as someone hooked on the buzz of constant stimulation, from social media to multitasking to caffeine and late-night scrolling.
The restless craving will scream at first. But beneath it, there’s a calm you forgot existed. It’s still there. Waiting.
She still used her phone. She still loved a good dopamine hit. But now, when she felt the frantic pull toward more, more, more, she’d pause and ask: What am I trying not to feel right now?