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I’ve been thinking about attention lately. Not as a virtue, but as a scarce currency we keep spending on nothing. A five-minute wait for a train becomes a frantic scroll through someone’s vacation photos. A quiet evening becomes a debate with a stranger in a comment section that neither of us will remember tomorrow.

The Weight of the Portable Bull

And yet, we move. That’s the strange part. The bull — the big, heavy, stubborn thing — is supposed to stay in the field. But ours is portable. We drag it to coffee shops, into bed at midnight, onto hiking trails where the only sound should be wind and bad breathing. portablebull.blogspot.com

The portable bull is the weight we choose. That’s the part that stings. I’ve been thinking about attention lately

We carry so much now. Not just phones, not just keys, not just the low-grade anxiety of a dozen unread notifications. We carry whole ecosystems in our pockets — calendars, cameras, chat logs, little mirrors that reflect back our own curated boredom. A quiet evening becomes a debate with a

This isn’t a Luddite manifesto. I like the toys. I like knowing things instantly, finding obscure songs, texting a friend a dumb joke at 2 AM. But I also miss the old heaviness — the non-portable kind. The weight of a book in a bag. The weight of waiting. The weight of a conversation that doesn’t get interrupted by a buzz.